Coming Alive

Where to begin....

With all good comes the bad in life,

but how grateful are we to know that through all the pain, heartache, and trials

we are still able to experience joy, happiness, and peace?

I believe that's what eventually gets everyone through the day 

and through the game of life.

Life is sure fun though, am I right?? ha
 For example, as you grow older you have that chance to look back;

Look back on all your past experiences
 *coughmistakescough*
take a lesson from most of them and try to become better.

Sometimes I feel as if I have heightened emotions and senses.

I get too excited, too depressed, too happy, too anxious.

I'm not trying to complain, in a way I'm very grateful.

Grateful for my emotions, senses, and intuition. 

(Now don't think 'well of course she has heightened emotions...

she's a girl' <stereotypical response from the misogynist>)
I can honestly say I wouldn't be me without my feelings. 

I've seen in my life that because of the way I feel,
it's easy to live in the past.

It's easy to hang and hold on to the things that I don't want to forget.
It's easy to cling to the good even if the bad by far outweighs it.
It's easy to remain stagnant and complacent.
It's easy to fear the future.
It's easy to keep looking back.

WHY?

Why do I do this especially when I know that
 moving forward is the only direction God gave me
The only direction He gave all of us.

It took some years but I have come to realize
 that this is my weakness
My flaw.
But I can't be immobilized by this.
There are times that I am numb and so hung up
on the past that when I snap out of it I find that
literally, days, have gone by.
 I find myself in a frantic panic,
Wondering where in the hell I've been?! 
That's it though,
Hell.
I made a personal hell for myself,
I've created this cage and isolate myself in it.

No more!
No more will I drift into this state.
No more will I keep clinging to the past,
especially when it's doing absolutely no good.
It's time to brush the stone off my shoulders and move forward.
My days standing as a statue are no more.

There's a good reason we can't go back to yesterday.
Where would any of us be if that were the case?
Tomorrow would never come,
Never hold hope for a better future.
And why would it?
When what we ruin today can be fixed yesterday?

It should be what we ruin today has a chance to be corrected tomorrow.
Every tomorrow holds hope.
Hope for a brighter day.
Hope for a better us.
Hope for an opportunity to grow.

Let's not be afraid to move forward,
Let's not keep living a statuesque life.
Let's start living and start growing.
Today's the day to begin again and not fear our futures.

Come Alive Today.