Fear

Fear is a funny thing...

It can keep you from doing stupid, reckless things that you know you will regret either in the morning or in a year from now.  You can fear the consequences of your actions and words by censoring what you do; afraid you might lose or upset someone.

Fear can also hold you back in life

Like that neurotic kid who lives a few doors from you who has all of those paralyzing phobias of 1. Leaving the house taking in a big breath of fresh air and inhaling a butter fly, resulting in death 2. Being completely terrified of the sun and global warming and doesn't want to be exposed, so he uses excessive amounts of sunscreen and protection to prevent cancer and 3. He's just plum frightened to leave the house because he knows that the government has been monitoring him and his whereabouts and are just waiting across the road in that black SUV ready to take him down at the first opportunity... You know just normal phobias.

Now I know what you're thinking "What? Jessie is not afraid of anything!" 

Thank you for being so confident in my fearless ways. I appreciate it.

Ready for the shocker.... I am terrified of only a few things, surprisingly ;)

Gratefully it's none of the fears mentioned above... well except for the first one... and the third, definitely the third. Alright and maybe a little of the second as well.

Haha okay I'm not crAzy, not like poor Timmy down the road.

My list of fears from Least Important to Most Important:

1. Mascots- Don't know what it is but they freak me out, you don't know who's inside and they never talk to you.. Is the person mute? Don't just stare at me with that creepy giant head and say NOthing!

2.Spiders- a wise man once said (I think it was Bill Engvall) Nothing on this planet needs eight legs. I agree 100%.  Plus I don't like getting bit or chased by them...Ugh!

3. Lifetime of Loneliness- What if I never get married and live alone my whole life known as the crazy cat lady with imaginary cats (not an animal fan, but I am starting to like dogs).

4.Scrutinizing Eyes- Sometimes I feel like everyone is staring at me thinking something awful. That's just crazy though, they don't know me and what could they possibly have to say?

5. The Dark- Not so much the dark as what's hiding in the dark that I can't see... I am completely terrified of being left alone in the dark.

6. Haunted Houses- I seriously love the rush of getting scared. But there are haunted houses that I think about from years ago the still send shivers up and down my back. They are also the perfect place to commit a murder... No one would even know it was happening ( have a great Halloween by the way!)

7. Standing Still- Every once in a while I feel like everyone around me is moving forward in life making all of this awesome progression and I'm stuck back at the starting line, in a child safety restraint that's tethered to a a giant weight and I can't get it released.

8. Rejection- What if I open my heart up to someone and I get scoffed at? I get used, taken for granted, then tossed to the side not needed at all.

9. Relationships- Everything about this scares me. I'm definitely more afraid of one working out than not.  Commitment terrifies me.  I want to be in one, but I'm afraid that they'll get bored with me and leave, it's happened before, it could happen again.  Plus I never want to get married and have my husband cheat on me  or divorce me, I've seen it happen to others and I can't handle something like that happening to me, at least I don't think so.

Welcome to my little list of fears and insecurities.

Everyone has them.

Like I said, Fear can help you to be smart and self-preserved, 

But can keep you from progressing in life if you let it overrun your mind.

Just remember a dash of fear can be helpful, 

but don't end up like Little Timmy from down the street. 

He's now 40 and never leaves the house because of his crazy conspiracy theories on the government. 

Don't be a Little Timmy.