Fresh Start

So it has officially been a week since I moved into my new apartment! Whoop!

I now have the chance to make new memories and hopefully replace some old ones.

Not so I can forget about certain events, but just so I can move on and stop thinking 'What If '.

Most days I feel like I'm standing still while I watch others move on to greater things.

I'm happy for them... I just wish I knew what I was doing with my life.

I feel like I'm in an ice cream shop, there are all these vibrant, exciting, wonderful flavors, nearly a hundred to choose from. 

I know I want something new, something that will send my senses on a trip.

Sadly, reluctantly I go for the same option... Coconut Almond.

It's good, don't get me wrong, but it's safe.

I'm becoming complacent. 

I'm too afraid that if I go for something new it won't be as good as my usual...

but what if it's better?

Again with those two simple words... What and If. 

Ineffective, but when used together with the right amount of gusto, these two words, reared with a little action from behind can change any course. 

From Coconut Almond to Razz-Ma-Tazz ( which I'm hoping is a real flavor because that would be fantastic!)

This is my attempt to reflect on my life and make some changes that obviously wouldn't hurt.

And much like Milk- do the body some good.

I'm cautious when it comes to the rest of my life.

There are times when I forget I'm an adult, and that I need to seriously consider my future.

The rest of the time I still feel 17 and I don't have any worries. Besides if the kid sitting across from me in English is going to be my first kiss or not (which he was).

That was 3 years ago and now I need to worry about big kid stuff... Yuck!

As far as I'm concerned if I close my eyes my problems will fly right past me and when I go to sleep they disappear into the night and are just a clouded dream.

These are the simple joys of being 5.

Cheers to a New Beginning and the Pros and Cons of growing up.