It CAN always be worse...

Here I was the last couple of weeks,

having a pity party for myself and

thinking How I hate Pocatello!

And that it couldn't possibly be any worse...

I was wrong.

I love Pocatello...

I love my Life!

Everything Will Be Alright

Behind this dark cloud,

A Bright Sun is waiting to Shine.

Ever so patiently, its warmth stays constant.

Never fleeting, never Waning.

It's easy to forget when it can't be seen.

After every storm there it remains.

So much brighter that the last time.

The same Sun.

It's brightness and beauty seem foreign,

beautifully foreign.

Even in times of cold, darkness

the Sun never leaves.

Watching its golden rays emerge from the clouds

is never the same as the last.

Each time a new found respect is formed.

A new sense of gratitude.

The Sun is the same,

It's during the storm

that We change.

Music can be so powerful, sometimes it's through Song  that we convey what can't be said otherwise,

Oh  Mumford and Sons, you've done it again.

For now I let the tears fall.

Because I Know that the Sun 

will Shine again.

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Coming Out of Hiding and Going Into Embarrassing

So sorry for my absence, I've been hiding out in my bunker for the end of the world... 

You know, to let the toxic fumes settle and what not,

Turns out the Earth is still spinning. 

Wow what a waste of a whole month! 

Kidding! I'm only slightly crazy and Out of my Mind!! 

Some people took that news seriously,

I bet they feel foolish, I know I do, but for much less :)

What could I possibly feel foolish for

(I know everyone is thinking that question, because clearly I'm Superb!)

Well let me prove that wrong, Not the 'Superb!' part, that is very much true,

I'm talking about the foolish bit.

Let's dive in to these little treats!

First let's begin with the end of 2012

December 31st, a day that will go down with infamy.

 The day the flood gates opened until all waters were loosed.

It all began when my boss made a terribly inappropriate, but hysterical joke.

The punchline was I ended up peeing my pants from laughing so hard.

(Ironically enough, the joke was about her peeing her pants, which she didn't, I covered that).

At least I ended the year with a Spray err, Bang!

3 days later on the 3rd of January I went on campus to get all signed up for school

(Yeee, so excited about that part!)

Anyway, I'm shoe-boppin' around on campus taking care of business,

I just got done taking my Student ID picture.

As I'm leaving the SUB, I see this kid behind a desk by the automatic sliding doors.

(Now to clarify these doors are different than normal, 

You would assume they would slide to the right to open, NOPE, They slide to the left... apparently.)

So I'm staring, thinking he looks familiar, and he finally looks up at me and 

BAM! I walked into the side of the sliding doors... that don't slide.  

Don't worry that this kid thought I was checking him out (which I wasn't, not entirely)

Slightly embarrassed I sprint out of the doors laughing at my stupidity.

I've just been feeling a little sluggish and down the last few days and

I thought everyone could use a good laugh, including myself.

You're welcome! 

BTW I'm more embarrassed about walking into the door than peeing my pants,

sadly this is not the first time that has happened, and I know it won't be the last.  :)

It Only Comes Once a Year

I love the holidays.

And this day only comes around once every year.

Black Friday

23 Saturday Night Live Black Friday(2 min)

(I tried so hard to get the video to show here and not just the link,

You have to watch it. It's pretty funny and

seriously I feel like half the stores/deals are almost this ridiculous...

Only you SNL, only you)

No. I'm actually a little upset.

I feel like all the attention for Thanksgiving 

isn't even for Thanksgiving, but the day after.

Don't get me wrong I do love the awesome deals,

aggressive sprinting for the last flat screen,

and the crazed look that has glazed over everyone's eyes at 4 in the morning!

It's just too bad that Thanksgiving isn't really for Thanksgiving....

Ok Honest truth

I'm only being bitter because I have to work 5:30am Black Friday....

BOOOOO!

Haha well I hope everyone has had an Awesome Thanksgiving

and please don't get trampled tomorrow/in a few hours.

As for me I have a 14 hour work day(laaame) so I'm off to bed.

Egg Therapy

So I've had a few hours to cool down from my previous post this morning.

FYI: the later I stay up the more I think and fester on subjects and become uncensored.

I'm glad I said what I did though,

It's how I feel and it helped me cope.

Anyway. I have the best of friends. Yesterday I went over to my

lovely friend Jess' and we made dinner, played Super Mario on the Wii,

and watched a movie, it was a terrific Sunday.

Today though... Today I had egg therapy.

My dear friend Rob, came to pick me up and 

get me out of my sulking mood.

I told him that I didn't have the gusto to get out and go

He so kindly replied,

"Jessie, get your ass ready! We are going! How is that for gusto?"

A little harsh.

He then sugar coated it and said please.

He came to pick me up 

and we made a pit stop for eggs and chocolate milk

(because chocolate milk is delicious)

We then proceeded to drive up to Scout Mountain.

Here we find a gate and a railing.

We then began to release our fiery and rage.

Who knew that an egg would bring such pleasure? 

It's silly how small things can make you feel so much better.

Thanks Rob!

Oh we each had our own carton of eggs :)

OOP! I Feel a Rant Session Approaching.... You Were Warned.

Okay... Here is my vent/ rant

for everything that has happened these last 2 months.

(And all other previous years, since I'm being honest)

I'm so sick getting by with "ehh yeah, good, well, better."

NO.

I deserve the best.

Not trying to say that I'm really, super amazing, but I am.

If you haven't heard, I'm Kind of a big deal.

Like a really nice car, I'm in mint condition.

(Yeah I'm comparing myself to a car just so the men... "man-boys" can understand...

you're welcome)

1. I've been around the block a few times

2. I have a few cosmetic detail errors,

3. Other than that, I'm a freaking dream.

Detailed Translation:

1. I know what's going on around me

Sometimes I just act like I don't know what's happening

I pretend to be oblivious, so I can just sit and observe people.

This way I can better tell what makes them tick.

I'm not psychic, but I can anticipate things that are going to happen.

I'm extremely intuitive.

2. I have my flaws, you don't need to tell me

or anyone else... trust me,

 I Know what they are.

Guess what? I have flaws. What are they? Oh I donno, I sing in the shower? Sometimes I spend too much time volunteering. Occasionally I'll hit somebody with my car.

-Michael Scott, The Office

(I love The Office, So yes this quote was pertinent)

3. If these small things can't be overlooked,

you will never see my potential.

I'm amazing and deserve so much better than what I have received.

... Su pérdida, vous perdez.

Sounds better in Spanish and French.

I'm done though. So... 

Your Loss.

I feel like I need to end with something ganster-ish....

PEACE OUT!

Ha I'm not good at that so have a great night/morning! :)

Fix It With a Kiss

Remember growing up between the ages 2-7 (ish)

It didn't matter when, where, or what, if you were in trouble, there were your parents.

Always there to make sense and stay calm of any traumatic experience that a 4 year old could possibly experience. 

It's the middle of the night, you wake up in a hot sweat.

Screaming for help because some other-worldly, monstrous, beast has been chasing you.

Luckily there's dad to say, "It's okay, it's only a dream."

He strokes your hair Kisses your head.

There he stays by the side of the bed until you've fallen back asleep.

You're outside with made-up games

They become real. It's fun, exhilarating, adventurous:

Hiking up the side of an active volcano.

Flying through the clouds, racing against time.

Cutting through vines in the deep of the Amazon.

The volcano erupts, you turn to run, but fall and scrape your knee.

The clouds are too thick, impairing your vision, you bash into the side of a plane.

Unaware of the dangers of the jungle, you head right into a thick patch of thorns.

Seriously injured, no where to go and completely stunned, what do you do?

Run.

Run to mom who's baking in the kitchen, 

Harboring a magic power in her lips.

There.

Simple as that, 

She kisses your life threatening wound.

Magic.

You are instantly healed,

 Back to your courageous adventures.

When you are at that precious age, everything can be mended.

Fixed with a kiss.

All of life's problems fade away with a simple touch of the lips to your head,

your knee, elbow, cheek.

Wherever the infected area is, your parents gently press their mouths upon it,

Instantly you are healed.

You reach a certain age where kisses are no longer Magic.

For a while they are gross, even meaningless.

You will and have tried to wipe them away so you look cool (secretly you did like it)

And once again you are in a stage where you want to be kissed.

Preferably from someone outside of the family.

It's shows that people who don't have to like you, do.

Now. Now you are here.

Wishing for that simple age where you can Fix it with a Kiss.

Where all of these insane issues, you never thought you would have to endure, 

could be easily solved; kissed away.

A kiss is now reassuring, empowering, and enduring.

Where did growing up ever become popular? I'll never know.

What I wouldn't give to have my problems fixed with a kiss.

There are times when it happens and for a brief moment, 

ever so small, but present

I feel my troubles being fixed with magic.

My monsters are conquered,

Injured knees, now healed,

Searing pain melted away.

My dreams become unhindered.

Moments later I feel better. Refreshed.

I have the strength to go on and be strong like I know I can be.

I'm not the only one searching for this Mystical power.

If only we were 4 again.

Our only problems: How to get out of nap time?

and

How close are Mom and Dad when I need their Magic powers?

Sometimes we need help,

A little reassurance,

Even trusted guidance.

A simple fix 

With the sweetest press of a Kiss.